I am on vacation this week. This is the first time in a long time that I had a vacation that didn’t involve something along the lines of building a house in Mexico or going to a conference in Philadelphia. In fact I didn’t have anything planned for this vacation other than seeing old friends and sitting on a boat. Then again it is hard to plan much of anything when you are going to Eufaula, Oklahoma. When I told people where I was going I always got the same response, “What is there to do there?” Nothing, that is the point.
I am completely awful at doing nothing. Is it just me? I feel guilty for doing nothing, especially if I have been doing nothing for more than an hour. My brain starts to panic, I haven’t been doing anything productive for an hour I am wasting my life away. Sometimes doing nothing is more stressful for me than being productive.
Yesterday I laid in the sun on the back of a boat for probably close to two hours. I dozed in and out, and I have never been more content. It was fabulous. Who knew that doing nothing could be so much fun? This morning I sat outside drinking coffee and watching the flash flood. I know a flash flood in Oklahoma, what is this?
Stress wrecks havoc on us. It is a silent killer, because we often are not even aware that it is happening. Once I finally allow myself to rest, I realize just how tired I really am. I haven’t been doing anything I shouldn’t be this tired. That isn’t entirely true. I haven’t been doing anything today but that doesn’t mean my body isn’t exhausted from the last few weeks, months, years. It reminds me just how much our bodies need to rest. I don’t just mean getting 8 hours of sleep a night. I mean truly rest. Like sit on a lake and not think about work type of rest. It is good for our bodies, it is good for our brains, but most importantly it is good for our souls.
Do nothing and don’t apologize.