I am not a morning person. At all. I am the person who plans 20 minutes of hitting snooze into my morning. This is a typical morning of waking up looks like in life of Lori Rensink.
*alarm goes off*
I really need to get up
Lori Marie Rensink get yourself out of bed right now
*Curls into blankets as a last chance desperate hope that I don’t have to get out of bed yet*
There is coffee . . . warm delicious coffee
I then proceed zombie like to get ready and drive myself to work, clutching dearly to my coffee like a lifeline. Just when I start wishing I could go crawl back in bed I reach downtown, and it is just so achingly beautiful.
The sun is rising filling the world with color and light. The birds are chirping busily as they have been awake for hours already. The bell tower chimes and it is the moment when that makes me ready for another day. In that moment the world awakens and I am very glad that I got out of bed. Let’s be real though, I will still take my daily nap in the elevator on the way up to my office. I am not narcissistic thinking the world needs me to go on. I will go about my day making very little impact on the world around. At least that is how it seems.
I go about my day making no difference at all but in slow subtle ways making all of the difference in the world.
Again not trying to be narcissistic, because I don’t think I am alone in feeling this way. We all wake up with great ambitions to change the world and impact the lives of everyone we encounter. Only to end up tired and irritable, feeling like we did not make much of a difference at all. But do not count yourself so small dear heart. You going about your life being you has impacted this world more than you will ever realize.
The world needs your face.
The world needs you.
Reflect for one moment on all of the wonderful people who have influence your life in some way. Everyone from the teacher who was the first one to believe in you, to the barista who had a horrible week but still gave you the smile that made your day. You have had a significant number of people who have influenced your life. They will probably never know the depth of their influence on your life. In turn, you will probably never know the depth of influence your life had on those around you. But that does not mean it does not exist.
Do not think for one moment that your life doesn’t matter, or that you will never make an impact on this world. Let me tell you a secret: your life has already mattered. You have already made an impact.
Do not count yourself so small dear heart.
You are magnificent, beautifully created in the hands of the one who knows even the deepest and dustiest corners of your soul. And you know the best part? Despite the fact that you snapped at that barista today for getting your drink wrong, despite the fact that you feel completely over whelmed and self adsorbed, and despite the fact that you do not think yourself capable of even having the smallest it of influence. He still smiles every morning when you wake up. Because you are magnificent, and He sees the tiny ways that you make this world a better place, every day.
Do not count yourself so small dear heart, the world needs you.